An honest confession
After giving birth, I struggled a lot about my identity… what it means to be a mom… I asked myself, “should I take a year, or so, for a maternity leave?” To be honest, I felt a little pressured to take time off because it seemed to be the normal thing that people do. Don’t get me wrong – I think it’s a great thing, but we are all unique and built differently. I realized it was okay not to take a year off and I realized that I wanted to keep shooting.
How did this realization come about? This past March, when I shot Annie and Ian’s wedding, I remembered how fun it was to shoot and how much I missed it. I had half expected it to be physically strenuous after having Mercy, but to my surprise, I found that it was on par to taking care of my baby. Watching a baby is tiring!
Now, I realize I’m opening our life up to the whole world here, and it’s kinda scary. A part of me wants everyone to think that we have everything under control; that everything is A-Okay… but I’m going to be very honest and vulnerable. As the new year rolled in, Ron began a search for new work and things weren’t really going the way we had hoped. Despite our best efforts, we found that nothing was pulling through. Missed opportunities and bad timing kept us on the search. One day I was speaking honestly about my work and how much I love to shoot, but at the same time, that I really don’t enjoy the logistical, clerical, and administrative aspects of my business. Then it dawned on us! I felt so dumb that we hadn’t seen what was right in front of us! We quickly realized that Ron could join my business and take over all these things that I’m not so great at because it turns out that Ron is pretty awesome at them. Once it was decided, I felt a huge weight lift off my shoulders. I hadn’t even realized how much I disliked administrative work. It’s a huge relief that Ron will now be taking over that part of the business in order to serve all you wonderful readers better.
So, through some struggles and challenges this awesome thing has been born!
Where would we all be if life was easy peasy, free of struggles? I doubt there’d be much creativity out there. Struggle births great things and I really believe that for this business.
I thank you for reading this long post and I hope that you’ll come to visit often.